7/6/11

seven years ago...

July 6, 2004- I met the most beautiful girl. Everything about her was perfect, except for her heart. I knew from the moment that I held her, that her time on earth would be short. Her plan was to come to earth long enough to get a body, and then return home to our Father in Heaven. She was too pure and too lovely to live on this earth. We didn't get to spend nearly enough time with her, but I'm thankful every day that she chose our family to be with for eternity. I feel blessed beyond words to be her mom. I am so grateful to have her forever! The pain of not being able to raise her in this life is calmed by the knowledge that I will be her mom for eternity. Yes, I have hard days. Yes, there are days that I would love to just curl up in bed and cry all day because I miss her so much. But I can't. I have two other children to care for. Her two rowdy brothers are counting on me. It's a choice we've made to celebrate the life she lived and the MANY lives she continues to touch each day. I want it to always be that way. I don't want to mourn her death. I want to celebrate the wonderful moments she spent here on earth. I know that makes her happy! When people ask WHERE did we come from, WHY are we here, and WHERE are we going, my answer is always the same. We came from a loving Heavenly Father who has a plan for each of us. We are here to prove ourselves worthy to live with Him again someday and be reunited as a family forever!
Happy birthday to my sweet Allie Jane!
We are seven years closer to seeing you again!
Love, Mom

23 comments:

Meredith Bleak said...

Such a sad and sweet story, Marni. I love your eternal perspective!

~PJ said...

Marni, thank you for sharing your story with us today. Happy Birthday Angel!

Natalie said...

Happy Birthday, Allie girl!!! I miss you so much too!

Marni, I've been thinking about you the past few days -- not just because we just got back from camping together! ;) You are such a stalwart example of courage and strength and of the blessings that we receive through our Heavenly Father's Plan of Happiness. Thank you for being my friend! Love you girl!

Sarah said...

Marni, that was the sweetest, most touching post I have ever read! You are so amazing and strong!

Heavenly Father has so much trust and faith in you that he chose YOU to be the mother to an incredibly precious angel.... [hugs!]

Kristy said...

I LOVE this post!!! SO SWEET!! You touched my heart!!

randi said...

i love you girl =)

idesign said...

so sweet, happy birthday to your little angel :)

Kassi @ Truly Lovely said...

Happy Birthday Little Angel Allie!

Terri @ A Creative Princess said...

Marni, that was so beautiful and touching. You are a beautiful person. Happy Birthday to your little angel.

christini yogini said...

Marni, what a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your heart & for your inspiration. Happy Birthday to your beautiful, sweet darling.

Desire Empire said...

Her life touched me too. Happy Birthyday little Allie Jane

Moira-Lin said...

Marni - Thank you so much for sharing this special day with us. It is amazing how much love I have for little Allie for only knowing her such a short time. I think about her often and think of how lucky she is to have you as her mom. I know she is looking forward to spending forever with you and her brothers and dad someday. What an amazing person you are! I love you SOO much.

Rosemary@villabarnes said...

Happy Birthday Allie Jane. How beautiful Marni, that you were chosen to be this precious ones mother for all eternity.

Hanni said...

I have just started following your blog for craft ideas. This post was exactly what I needed today as we said goodbye to our 7 week old baby girl Oct. 8th after open heart surgery. I needed to read this post today. I needed a reminder of God's love and promises. I needed some encouragement. Thank you. May God continue to use your story to touch others.
Hanni Stones

Alyssa said...

Marni!
My brother died when he was almost 5 months old. Heavenly Father truly does have a plan for these sweet little babies! We are so blessed to know that we can be together forever with them, and that we were allowed to hold such a sweet spirit! Happy Birthday Allie!

Sharon @ Elizabeth & Co. said...

What a tender and thoughtful post. I have walked in your shoes. And no matter how much time goes by, it is not an easy path. But it's all part of the journey.

Grandma Carla said...

I am so thankful to be your mother and for you to have allowed me to hold your precious daughter. Time was short, but you let those who love you and her to have some time with an angel. Seven years? It seems like yesterday. Love you.

Lil' Luna said...

Happy Birthday Allie!! That is such a touching story, Marni. Will be thinking of you this week as you remember and celebrate the life of your sweet daughter. XO - Kristyn

Xenia said...

This is the most beautiful post, Marni, thank you for sharing it with us. Happy Belated Birthday sweet Allie Jane, you are so very loved!

Jenny @ Embellishing Life said...

What a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing this with all of us. Happy birthday to your little angel.
{hugs}

Lolly Jane said...

love this post. you are AMAZING! she's so lucky to have you as her mama and I know you're proud to be her mama too!! happy {belated} bday little Allie Jane!! xoxo

Shay said...

Love this! You are truly amazing and I try to be better everyday because of Allie! She has touched all of our hearts. Love you!

allison @ itstoilegood.blogspot.com said...

this brought tears. sending hugs. your strength is amazing!